Category: Ayahuasca

The End of this Medicine!

Journal Entry – Feb. 23 San Pedro was yesterday. Such a beautiful medicine & my crazy, kick ass, hero dosing body has become uber sensitive. Everything was so beautiful yesterday. Thelagoon, the people, life. And I had too much, LOL! I craved touch yesterday so

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Aya Camp Entry #7?

Ceremony #7 A perfect end. After the usual terrifying piece, all calmed. I built a world under blankets and felt all the sensations – Visual, auditory & physical. Overwhelming sensations. Why does it have to be so terrible? I talk myself through it. What comes

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Enlightenment

Before enlightenment – chop the wood, carry the wood, stack the wood. After enlightenment – chop the wood, carry the wood, stack the wood. It feels weird to say, but today I hit enlightenment. Years of being so hard on myself, I cried for. Years.

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The Sweat aka Temazcal

The SWEAT The TEMAZCAL MY intention : to find the strength to carry on and finish the 2 hour ceremony and carry that strength into my life. Analogy : I was shown me walking through an abyss of dark just r eaching out to grab whatever

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Aya Camp Entry #5 – The big dose

Journey #5 Journal entry : Went for a big dose tonight. Went to another dimension of melting and waves and totalphysical sensations. At one point I felt work being done in my crown. It felt like my skull was being mined away from my head,

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Aya Camp – Big breakthrough!

Wow. Travelled all night to get here. Cusco and then the Sacred Valley. Had a massive breakdown today. Sat in the shower and cried. Had a nap, cried somemore. Total fucking breakdown. I didn’t know what to do, under the effects of Medicine and then

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Aya Camp Entry #4 –

Ceremony #4 Journal entry : Judgement. Inner monologue. Hatred. Failure. The last 3 ceremonies have been exactly the same but completely different. Everything highlighting this crazy war I have going on 24/7 with myself. The blame for not loving me shifts from one worthy opponent

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Aya Camp Entry #3 – Rock Bottom

What I wrote after ceremony #3. Yesterday was the most beautiful Valentine’s day I have ever had. I officiallyunboycott the day as it now has so much more meaning. How beautiful an annual reminder of the day I fell in love with myself. The day

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Aya Camp Entry #2 – All the things

What I wrote after my second ceremony. This night I journeyed into “All the things.” The medicine came on fast and came on strong. I realized I spend a significant amount of time labelling myself – I am this, I am not that and tonight

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