Category: Shame

My Worth

Mar.1 – Journal Entry Yesterday was a day of insights. I did over 8 hours of yoga. Over 3.5 hours of physical asana & 2.5 hours of dancing and then ended with an astral projection meditation. What I recognized was more worth issues around the

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Aya Camp – Big breakthrough!

Wow. Travelled all night to get here. Cusco and then the Sacred Valley. Had a massive breakdown today. Sat in the shower and cried. Had a nap, cried somemore. Total fucking breakdown. I didn’t know what to do, under the effects of Medicine and then

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Aya Camp Entry #4 –

Ceremony #4 Journal entry : Judgement. Inner monologue. Hatred. Failure. The last 3 ceremonies have been exactly the same but completely different. Everything highlighting this crazy war I have going on 24/7 with myself. The blame for not loving me shifts from one worthy opponent

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Aya Camp Entry #2 – All the things

What I wrote after my second ceremony. This night I journeyed into “All the things.” The medicine came on fast and came on strong. I realized I spend a significant amount of time labelling myself – I am this, I am not that and tonight

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This is me

This is me. No filter. No make up. No eyelash extensions. No gel nails. No faces to cover up my hatred for selfies. This is the girl I love to hate and hate to love. This is the girl I cover in make up and

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Friendship

Friendship. I needed a ride to the ferry a month ago and was at a loss for who to ask. All my friends are busy, have their own lives and are often business oriented – meaning the reason I know them is because of my

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Shame

Today what comes to mind is shame. The word shame. The feelings of shame. A lot of the stuff that comes up around trauma, for myself and for others, is shame. Shame really means that you think something is wrong with you. That what happened

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