Category: Shift Your Mindset

Retreat Ponderings

March 24 Journal Entry Thoughts while spending contemplation time during the retreat. For the last few years I have been super into manifesting and finding clarity around what one wants in order to attain it. More recently I made a list about what/who I want

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Aya Camp Entry #7?

Ceremony #7 A perfect end. After the usual terrifying piece, all calmed. I built a world under blankets and felt all the sensations – Visual, auditory & physical. Overwhelming sensations. Why does it have to be so terrible? I talk myself through it. What comes

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Enlightenment

Before enlightenment – chop the wood, carry the wood, stack the wood. After enlightenment – chop the wood, carry the wood, stack the wood. It feels weird to say, but today I hit enlightenment. Years of being so hard on myself, I cried for. Years.

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Aya Camp – Big breakthrough!

Wow. Travelled all night to get here. Cusco and then the Sacred Valley. Had a massive breakdown today. Sat in the shower and cried. Had a nap, cried somemore. Total fucking breakdown. I didn’t know what to do, under the effects of Medicine and then

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Arriving

So yesterday was a big day. The start of the retreat. We were to all meet up for the shuttle. There we all get to check each other out, size each other up and see who we are with for thenext at least 7 days.

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Goodbye Colynn!

  This is how I feel today as I sit at the airport, ready to fly! Today I set off for who knows how long. To go do who knows what, who knows where lol. Well I know a bit. Tomorrow at this time I

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Friendship

Friendship. I needed a ride to the ferry a month ago and was at a loss for who to ask. All my friends are busy, have their own lives and are often business oriented – meaning the reason I know them is because of my

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Control & Stability

From Bali to Big Lake. What an incredible journey. From +25 C to -9 C. So many incredible lessons along the way, in fact it feels like they just keep a comin. Today I speak to my perception of control & stability. I came back

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Shame

Today what comes to mind is shame. The word shame. The feelings of shame. A lot of the stuff that comes up around trauma, for myself and for others, is shame. Shame really means that you think something is wrong with you. That what happened

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