Rolling Out the Welcome Mat: Yoga for Every Body

Hey There, Yoga Family,

Let's chat about something that's been on my mind a lot lately. You know, yoga is supposed to be about balance, acceptance, and peace. But, let's be real – sometimes, it feels like you've got to be a thin, flexible, young, and typically white gal to fit in. I'm here to shake that up a bit.

Why Yoga Needs a Reality Check

You've seen it, right? Those picture-perfect yoga studios with their Instagram-worthy poses. It's like yoga turned into a competition for who can be the most zen while rocking Lululemon. Here's the thing – I'm a queer, bigger-bodied person, and I've been in those rooms where I felt like I stuck out like a sore thumb. Not cool.

Talking the Talk, But Not Walking the Walk

Ever been to a class where the instructor's words felt more like a script for a fitness model shoot than a real-life yoga session? Yeah, me too. Sometimes it feels like they're teaching from a place of ego rather than empathy. I've heard instructions and comments that made me think, "Who are you actually talking to?" Because it sure wasn't me or half of the folks in the room.

Flipping the Script on Yoga Spaces

So, here's my approach – let's make yoga chill again. In my classes and retreats, everyone's welcome. I mean it. Queer, straight, big, small, young, old, injured, Olympian – you get the picture. Yoga is about connecting with yourself, and how can you do that if you don't feel welcome in the first place?

Keeping It Real

In my world, yoga is less about hitting that perfect pose and more about feeling good in your skin. I use language that's for everyone, offer modifications for every body type, and keep things light. A little humor goes a long way, especially when you're trying to twist your body like a pretzel (which, by the way, is totally optional).

The Proof Is in the Pudding

I've seen what happens when you open the doors wide. People come in, they relax, they smile, and they connect – not just with yoga but with each other. That's the magic. That's the yoga I fell in love with, and that's what I'm here to share.

Join the Fam

If you're tired of feeling like you don't belong in the yoga world, I've got you. Come to my class, hit up one of my retreats, or just drop me a message. Let's make yoga what it was always meant to be – a place for every one of us.

Stay Bendy (Or Not),

Colynn

What is this about Past Life Regressions?

Hi folks! I'm Amber. I will be writing some guest blog posts for Colynn in the coming weeks. You'll get to know me a little more with each post, but for now, I want to tell you about my experience with Colynn as a teacher and past life regression facilitator.

I first met Colynn through the online yoga teacher training program facilitated by Sacred Paths Yoga. Of all the teachers available within this course, she was my favorite. In a field saturated with gurus and performative positivity, Colynn's disarming authenticity was (and continues to be) an uncomfortable relief that I did not realize I desperately craved. She is a person who knows how to hold space for both herself and others in a way that allows us both to be human: messy, complicated, and yet divine.

What is Past Life Regression?

Past Life Regression is a phenomenon that can naturally and spontaneously occur within an age regression hypnosis session. Psychologists and therapists such as Brian Weiss, Michael Newton, and numerous others have written books that describe clients who have spontaneously begun to describe memories of another life during a standard hypnotic age regression. Descriptions of the afterlife, past lives, and the experiences between them tend to correlate with one another.

I'm a deconstructing ex-vangelical from the Bible Belt. So this revelation floored me. I wanted to know everything I could about past life regression: what it was, how it worked, why it worked, and what that meant for me. So here I am a few months later, a certified hypnotist and a guest writer on this blog. 🤷

Colynn’s past life regression training was my first step into what will likely be a lifelong curiosity about states of consciousness, hypnosis, meditation, and "the theory of everything". Colynn learned how to facilitate past life regression through the late Dolores Cannon's QHHT program. Cannon's program incorporates a unique approach that quickly brings the client to a state of deep hypnosis rather than the light trance state where most clinical hypnotism sessions tend to linger.

What does it feel like to experience a past life regression?

There are a lot of false impressions about hypnosis. One of the biggest misconceptions is the fear that the hypnotist has complete control over the client. I was pleasantly surprised to find that this is the furthest thing from the truth. The hypnotist is only a guide. You get to decide how deep into your subconscious you wish to go. You get to decide how willing you are to allow yourself to rest in that powerful place of deep relaxation.

In my case, it took a little practice to allow my subconscious memories to arise without immediately analyzing them or trying to make something happen with my conscious willpower. I eventually learned how to quiet my mind when I recognized that it was a natural state of consciousness in which I was already very familiar. You are free to "snap out of it" at any moment you wish. It is comforting to know that hypnosis is a regular old state of consciousness similar to a relaxing daydream, isn't it?

Overview of Colynn's Past-Life Training

The training was a mix of pre-recorded material and weekly live sessions with a small, tight-knit class. The small class size is ideal because we dove right into experiencing past life regressions for ourselves. Our live sessions were full of intimate insights and epiphanies about how our past life experiences related to the lessons we are here to learn in this life. This is where Colynn's magic shines. She teaches you some of her coaching techniques that you likely will not see in similar courses.

Colynn humorously recounts the initial expectations she had of her first regression. I found, as she did, that experiences from past lives are more about learning lessons than about being an Interesting Somebody. Some lifetimes may seem uneventful, unfamiliar, or mundane. I have been an electric lineman who lived a simple life with few connections to others. I have been an orphaned boy living a difficult childhood on the streets of an old English city. I have been a little girl in a fishing village who felt betrayed by her beloved ocean when she accidentally drowned. I have been an indigenous woman in the Northern Territories of Canada who did not recognize her worth outside of being a mother.

The post-regression follow-up talks were as discerning and illuminating as the sessions themselves. The past lives that came up for me have had recurring themes and souls that work together throughout multiple lifetimes, in different roles. The experiences in each of these sessions had something to teach me in this life. After sharing, Colynn was there with the piercingly gentle questions that I grew to expect. As she did so, she broke down her coaching methods for us. She focused on respectful boundaries, facilitating and maintaining sacred space, and communicating from a place of kindness and personal permission.

The class put their new skills to the test during the final week. We were required to facilitate a past life regression session with a volunteer outside of the class. We also learned some of the basics of setting clear marketing goals for a business. Again, this was where Colynn's personal experience in business coaching shone. Her targeted, no-nonsense advice helped us to get started with our business and marketing goals. future.

Experience Two of Your Past Lives

Did you know that you can experience a past life regression from the comfort of your own home? You can explore two of your past lives in an upcoming PLR session with Colynn. The next session is on January 9, 2022, at 3 pm PST.

https://frikshuhn.com/enroll-past-life-regression/

Past Life Regression Facilitator Training

You don't have to go as hard as I did, but this course is a great way to not only experience past life regression for yourself but to facilitate it for others with respectful, insightful coaching. The next facilitator training will be in May 2022.

https://frikshuhn.com/enroll-past-life-regression-facilitator-training/

 

 


Amber is a certified hypnotist that combines meditation techniques, neuro-linguistic programming, and storytelling with a gentle, reassuring approach. She facilitates spiritual education and energy work through workshops, courses, and distance sessions. Amber currently lives in a little hobbit hole with two cats and a hedgehog.

Website: www.arkadiosstudios.com

Email: arkadiosstudios@gmail.com

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Ownership

Mar. 26 - Journal Entry

OWNERSHIP

Up until recently, every relationship I have been in has been about ownership. Being together means property. This means I get to tell you what to do and I have to listen or not, to what you tell me to do. We can fight if either doesn’t “listen”, etc. I have been that way but not to an extreme & have been shifting for the last few years, but have maintained some control over my significant other.

I have thought lots about old patterns of jealousy & upset and not speaking up & not being honest and now in this moment recognize that I was manipulative & could claim the victim if things didn’t work out. On this journey I have been introduced to a lot of ways of being that I didn’t even know existed. A lot of labels as well.

Is a relationship two individual people that come together to explore this life or part of this life together and what are the rules around that? With open relationships, polyamory, fluidity, sapiosexuals, and a million other LABELS the evolution of relationship sure looks differentthan what my parents and grandparents partook in. As of late, my idea of the only boundaries being open, honest & transparent communication seems to be what I am seeking. Being a serial monogamous, I am not sure how all the other things would fly with me, but I can imagine that with constant communication anything can either be worked through or explored without ownership or rules by rather with mutual respect and love.

Retreat Ponderings

March 24 Journal Entry

Thoughts while spending contemplation time during the retreat.

For the last few years I have been super into manifesting and finding clarity around what one wants in order to attain it. More recently I made a list about what/who I want my next partner to be/be like. It’s a great list.  Back home, the more I interacted and dated, the clearer I became about what I want and don’t want, so the list grows. As I continue to meet people more recently, I have started to question this list. Not all of it, just some parts. For example, previously I dated someone super tall, I have never really hung out with someonethat tall before, and I thought it was awesome, so I put it on the list. Through my travels (and life in general), I have met a significant amount of not tall people (we are talking 6’6”) and they have a lot of the qualities that I am seeking and this has had me question my list and therefore, my advice to others. So the questions flow - how much of this is superficial? Like why tall? What am I looking for? How important are physical aspects as compared to the deeper stuff? Is deviating from the list a cop out and fear that stems from being alone? OR am I closer to discovering who is right for me, even if they don’t completely fit the list? Is the list person out there?

Which brings me back to a lesson in patience. In slowing down. In knowing. AND yet brings up more question… Trust. Go with the flow. Be in the present. Enjoy. Faith. How fucking hard is it to do those things… lol? Depends on my vocabulary, I guess.

Best Date Ever

Today fate put me in a car from the farm to Jaco to meet my babies with yet another interesting and beautiful creature so full of lessons. My drive to Jaco with Pat was yet another, super clear sign from the universe.

The farm was so amazing and healing. On my last day I was taken on a beautiful jungle date to a river confluence and was shown enlightenment with a different medicine. Love & nature. The conversation that took place on the big rock on the bank of the river was the most powerful and insightful conversation I may have ever partaken in. What I heard was that I am so perfectly imperfect just the way I am and that my expectations around self love will continue to leave me disappointed. That the more I keep searching, the more I will discover I don't have and therefore will continue to search and not find and nothing, no one, especially me, will ever be good enough. That the intention to search outward is enough to say that I don't know, I don't have the answers and therefore will forever quest for the right answer. I cried and I truly saw nature and myself for what we truly are. I also saw another person as they truly are. Divine & beautiful & authentic and real 

Back to my drive... I was attached to what my next direction would be and the conversation on our drive really showed me that I am going in a different direction. What I recognized was that I am unattaching from material things and really starting to attach to the feelings & experiences and then want to make or stay in the moment. But the truth I need to see is that the experience happens and I try to hold on and make that the thing. And unattachment is the practice, as well as trusting and allowing. So... how can I take the lessons & experiences & let them go, holding the experience & memories & continuing to take what comes to me as it comes to me?  

Today I Ate an Ant

Mar.6 - Journal Entry

Summer Vosburgh is travelling today. My thoughts go to her. Sitting here with no internet, I just trust. Funny how it happened, seems perfect. AND scary. Denise is gone and my neighbours leave tonight. Some nerves happening for me about being alone. Again, more of what I need. 

Mar.10 - Journal Entry

Forest dance. Hmmmm. What can I say about ceremonial fire dancing in the forest from midnight until sun rise? Can I not get into it because I invited someone in? Hmmmm.

I think back to when I said yes to this, to forest dance. I had no idea what it was or what would happen. When I got here, my initial thought was, what the fuck did I sign up for? I tried to blame Kylie Judge & Leah Barsher, but they wouldn't let me get away with that. I was like, what did you get me into & Kylie was like, dude - I remember suggesting it and you said yes before I even finished my sentence... so what did you get yourself into. LOL.

What this brings up for me is this interesting relationship we hold with fear and with trying to make everything perfect. If Iknew what Forest Dance was, I would not have gone AND even in going, I was uncomfortable and can't quite tell you if I loved it, but the experience was one of the best experiences of my life. I am so glad I said yes. Big lessons.

The people and community are amazing and the lessons rich in every person I experienced. Some insight: What would it be like to be in a body that doesn't really reflect who you are, but yet still does so fully? Like on a big level? When I think of stretch marks or the things I have hated on my body, it feels like it has become something I have just grasped onto to hate myself. The insights so beautiful, this place incredibly healing, conversations so deep.

Such a contrast with the connections placed in front of me thus far. Ben, Sean Webb, Doug, Heather A LongwayBeth N Brandon SteeleChris OlsenEvan RenaertsAngel Ricardo Quiñones, Sara & Jon, Harry JudgeDenise MacDonaldJohn JudgeKylie JudgeLeah BarsherShaneward WilingtonCher BearEsperanza YennieTerry TomeiMollie ButlerOlivia BlueJason CohenJason BlissBodhi MichaelJessica Lee FilkinsKaren GordonRudy PilaHollis TaylorBright HawkBaba St. AubinLuke DeStefanoSarah BistaUlt MundaneAshley BerryTish Natashia SteenkampWhitney Salvador LmtMelodie FallonAna NephilimAllison WaggenerSarah Marie EchsnerIya SoroJoy Massicotte, and anyone else that is not my FB friend... and was in those two retreats... The lessons have been so rich and conversations so deep and I am left integrating, processing and a completely different person, yet still the same.

What comes up so fully for me is expectation, appreciation, gratefulness, faith, and love. My interactions with others are showing me more about people and the the types of people I am currently attracting, which is so great in addition to those already in my life  I hold the intention to continue to attract more in this mindset, more that hold deep lessons and connection, more that can help me to guide myself even further.

PS - Today I ate an ant.

Oh My God!!!!

Oh
My
God

Today I arrived on the farm. I did not expect this. I was shown to my abode and there were no fucking walls. Open air to the mother fucking jungle. No net on my bed. Listen... 4 weeks ago I had eyelash extensions and a French manicure, 6 weeks ago I had a 3000 square foot home and here I am. Lol.

No Internet, no cell service, no indoor bathrooms, but.... There are composting toilets, nature, and jungle boys.

Pulled 2 cards today - one said go for it, be daring & the other said be healed in nature. Quite the place to come to. No fucking walls. Open air bed. This forest dance could be crazy and insightful and beautiful. Be open. Everything will be fine with kids. You have got this.

***Looking back on this I am astonished. Opportunities came up that I really struggled with and I did go for it and I was daring, but I didn't remember those cards. I was totally healed in nature. Also Summer was travelling to Costa Rica and I was struggling because I couldn't keep in contact and I figured she needed her mommy... But she did fine without me.

Mar.5

Morning here with the neighbours... I fell in love immediately with Michael & Linda... Fresh coffee, guitar, songs, wise words and a heart shaped tub!

Insights from Michael's morning session :
The little voice in me that talks with no sound.
I am not becoming. I am not going anywhere. I am that, whatever that is.
Go from knowing it all to all knowing.

Evening here includes community, amazing food, incense and reading. A book made its way to me called We. Well worth the read. Notes from We :
In the evolution of consciousness our greatest problem is always our richest opportunity.
Zen teaches that inner growth always involves an experience of a red hot coal in the throat. In our development we always come to a problem, an obstacle that goes so deep that we can't swallow and we can't cough it up.
Love is an archetype, it has its own character, it's own traits, it's own personality. Love behaves as a person in the unconscious. Love is distinct from my ego. Love was here before my ego came in to this world. Love will be here after my ego departs. Yet, love is something or someone that lives within me. Therefore, when I say I love, it is not I who love, but in reality love who acts through me. Love is not so much as something I do as something that I am. Love is not a doing but a state of being.

8 hours of Yoga!

Mar. 3 - journal entry

Sitting with Harry and Denise, I was listening to them speak to being in a place of contentment. Not complacent, yet also not looking to devote their time at present to healing... As they feel in a good place at the moment AND both are single. The lesson? I am there, I just needed to realize it AND it is time to integrate all that I have learned.

Mar. 4 - journal entry

Struggling with this group mentality. Feeling like I don't fit in. Not a new story forme. It feels like no one cares about what I have to say. What I have recognized from this particular set of interactions though is that some people are just not my people. And some are. But the story I tell tends to be that I don't belong in most groups that I run in... This is why I call myself a Weirdo.... This is why I am short on close friends, I have but a few. And I could look at this differently as well, it doesn't have to be a bad thing.... And I don't think I am wrongabout how I feel. I want to be close with peeps and it just doesn't vibe. I guess I just keep looking for my tribe without judgement.

Later insight to this: what I realized is, I already have people. Why do I need to go across the world to find more? Love who and what I have with the ones in my life now! Appreciate them and stop trying to find more, I do already have so much.

My Worth

Mar.1 - Journal Entry

Yesterday was a day of insights. I did over 8 hours of yoga. Over 3.5 hours of physical asana & 2.5 hours of dancing and then ended with an astral projection meditation. What I recognized was more worth issues around the actions I have been taking in my personal & professional life. I see the impact that it has on me vibrationally to be with a person that has a partner. AND without anger, I see the way they are using me to feel better about themselves by bringing me into their entanglement.

I see how not being number 1 or the one or the next main interest is a cop out for me. I don't have to put myself out there. I can always blame any rejection on outside circumstances & yet... it decreases and impacts my self worth even more because I am the other. I am allowing myself to be used. I have been doing it unconsciously - aware that there may be another person involved in this energetic exchange, but putting that responsibility on the person I am with. My friend Denise pointed out though, that if we are all one and I am skirting the responsibility of finding out this person has a partner or if I am aware that there is another... this impacts us all... Deeply! We are to raise each other up, not tear each other down.

Today I take responsibility... AND I see my worth.